For the last several weeks, I’ve been in a state of happiness that I haven’t felt in years. Sure, my marriage and my kids make me happy (and always have,) but going to school has opened something inside of me that is difficult to put into words.
Last year when I was taking the prerequisites to get into this nursing program, I liked school, but the subjects we had to take didn’t ignite the flame that is currently sparking my soul. I find myself continually in this my-cheeks-hurt-from-smiling kind of a state that I can’t help but be more calm, mentally organized, full of energy and man, have I ever been sleeping like a baby.
I honestly thought I would be a frazzled mess this far into school, worried about every little thing, worried about absorbing all the material and scared I couldn’t do it. I thought I’d be stressed OUT beyond belief.
Yes, I realize it’s early in the year.
Anyway.
Instead I find myself reading my textbooks with great earnest, soaking up the material in class and at home, through various channels of books, multimedia, lectures and labs. I’m finding this old brain is remembering more than I ever thought possible, and though we’re only had two tests so far (I got a 98% and an 85%, thankyouverymuch), I feel confident and inspired and well, I’m loving this.
Let me be clear: I FREAKIN’ LOVE THIS.
Every weekday I pop out of bed at 5 a.m., thrilled that it’s a new day of learning, of growing, of discovery. I love putting on my scrubs, cracking open my books after our family dinners, and that feeling of confidence that is multiplying with every new skill we learn at school.
There is no doubt in my mind, this is exactly what I’m meant to do.
The kids and I had a busy weekend, but I captured some cool shots at the Open Doors London event where we got to tour South Street Hospital, which is closing. There are still some areas that are occupied, so lots was blocked off, but we got to see the morgue, ER, Cardiac Cath Lab and lots more. We loved it!
1) Filled up my PVR with Teen Mom and Jersey Shore – I seriously have not seen even 1 minute of television since I started school last week. I doubt I will have time anytime soon. Ah well – I’m sure Snooki’s poof and Amber’s anger will go on without me.
2) Admitted to you that I watch those trashy trashy shows.
3) Handed my husband a glass of milk and my 12 year old a bottle of beer while serving dinner. Twice. (Both times it got corrected right away; don’t call the authorities.)
4) Run on the treadmill at the college gym. Now, this doesn’t sound stupid, in fact it admittedly has the true ring of a Humblebrag, BUT the college treadmills are soon followed by the crap-ass college showers. I could spit with more pressure than what these suckers gave out. AND! When someone else flushed a toilet, guess who screamed bloody murder because she was scalded? This is why we pay the big bucks for higher education, folks.
5) Bought my books on Amazon, bought an online code from the college bookstore, Amazon books arrived & I thought the code was in the front cover, so I returned the code to the bookstore, and now they are sold out. The person who orders stuff is on strike, and I am without a code. Solution came today when an order was placed and when it arrives, I will be approximately 10-14 days behind on online work. My saving grace is I kind of understand the internet just a little bit (yes that is sarcasm) and will be able to breeze through all of it if I pull an all nighter.
6) Bought a giant desk/wall calendar so I could keep a visual track on all courses, assignments, tests, etc. I made a colour coded legend to track each course separately and keep it as organized as possible. I use Google Calendar with iStudiez Pro, and a paper/pen agenda, but I wanted the BIG picture, yanno? Got everything ready, markers out, legend written in colours and BAM. That fartsucking calendar starts in January 2012. SUPER DUPER.
Ah well. We’re getting into the meat and potatoes of the content at school now and I get it all just fine. For now. It’s just a lot and somewhat overwhelming. I keep repeating in my head the mantra that is on the back of my phone case: Keep Calm and Carry On.
Although I’d really like a decent shower in that school gym.
Well that’s the 4 minutes and 34 seconds I allotted myself to blog. How are YOU?
