Peace

February 28, 2009 Uncategorized

Lisa has found her peace.  May she rest her sweet heart now.  She will be missed.

Crop Circles in the Carpet

February 25, 2009 Uncategorized

A lot happened today.  I was super-busy with work and suddenly: our world stopped.  My little nest of online friends, some I know in real life and some I have never met but would run a marathon for in a heartbeat…we all just stopped.

As I slunk into a deep pool of music, I recalled the things that brought our world to this moment.  It was one we sadly expected.  Still, a shocking moment that none of us were really ready for, despite having gotten notice many moons ago.  There’s never a good time for this to happen, we tell ourselves.

I cried. I got angry. I wished for a different ending. I rung my hands.  I kissed my kids and told them I loved them until they squirmed away.  I gave the dog belly rubs and kisses and extra treats.  When Daren came home, I kissed him a little longer.

This is what we do.

How it must be so very difficult for her husband tonight, for her children, and her too, though she is a little lost now already, all too soon.

All too soon.

Somber thoughts carefully swimming through my head, I brought myself to really feel what it must be like for those who have true roots in the situation.  My heart leaped out of my chest at thoughts about this little family that I never had the pleasure of meeting in person.  I willed for them to be okay through this and beyond.  For her husband about to be a solo act to be capable and patient through what will hopefully be some really good years with his children, despite their loss.

Blogs are powerful things.  We know each other’s deepest secrets and thoughts without ever having had our arms around each other’s shoulders or shared a meal.  That is a beautiful thing, but it also comes with this new territory: the earsplitting scream as we lose one of our own.  And they are indeed one of us.  Like tribes, we go forward in this solidarity of ‘putting it all out there,’ however ugly or smashingly gorgeous.

Go in peace, Lisa.  You are so very loved by this community.  You will be missed so much.

New House New House New House!

February 24, 2009 There are other people besides me?

So yeah, the move went great. And we’re so moved in, I didn’t even bother to clean up when I took pictures for you.  That’s how comfy I am with you.  LOL!

I stuck this picture of tomatoes in here because I liked it.  Plus you can see our granite up close.  The granite is wicked cool.  I love it.  The best part of living here is cooking together most nights.

Daren will build a deck off the back in the spring.  For now? Some wood.

I should really hang up my jacket.  But I have a sore throat.  And nobody was coming over.  Well except for you.  And you don’t care do you?

I can’t wait till spring!